Still in holiday mood, I was almost late for my first appointment this morning. I wanted the holiday would last-at least-longer, not forever, since I love my job. I'm considering and applying for a similar job for next school year, pray I'll be accepted and leave this beautiful place. Everyone's leaving anyway. Fun never lasts. It's gonna be another adventure, which I'm so IN! Hopefully..hopefully..

I've spent the whole vacation mostly with young(er) people and some old(er) people which MADE me reflecting on my life, what i have done to ruin it, slowly..but sure. I don't know what I've been doing, but from the place I'm viewing it, it's a little messed up. I was looking at my sister, and RJ, and Megan, and seeing someone I was, the way I used to be. Now..I'm an underachiever, fun-loving individual, busy doing nothing. It's new year, no resolution, no plan, and found FUN in it! I wish I could just enjoy every moment of it without any pressure of finding money or mate (I have enough with the "when is your turn" question). Yet, I have to find purpose in life, make myself useful or..do I have to?

I wish I could live in Neverland where I wouldn't grow up and could fly away just with happy thought.